Thursday, December 8, 2016


Two little travel ditties

I cannot call them poems, though poems they are. I penned them down in a train, about seven or eight years ago, as I traveled through little humdrum villages in Kerala to attend a function. Life itself had seemed like an R.K.Narayan novel at that time, thoughts piling on thoughts, experiences on experiences, and not the space of a single breath to sort out my mind.

Yet I wrote what came to me all of a sudden. Like a little thunderstorm in the middle of summer. And after several years, I came by these lines where they lay, in a nondescript notepad consigned to be 'waste paper.' And hereby, I restore them to their rightful place...


I. In a Moving Train

Little grilled windows
through which light shines
and casts shadows
of ogres and giants
that sit inside
eating their curds and whey
and packaged food and overripe fruits
While noisy children play
and run and push and catch and shove
and squeal and spit and scratch and sigh
Little ogrelings, they.

What, to them, is an open pen?
But a sharp thing to jab
into his hand or her thigh
They, who do not buy
The chips and the chocolate and the cake
In a moving train they
and theirs now do sleep, while I wake...


(unedited)

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II. Nemmara

I visit Nemmara in my dreams
A sleeping house in a shady lane
A swept-out yard where chickens run
And twenty acres of cane.

I open its door one early morn
As the cock crows at the breaking dawn
I wash the porch and wash the steps
And kolams make of powdered rice
The dark floors to adorn.

And the cattle goes to earn its bread
And the lads run from school
While scented girls do gently tread
Beside the temple pool.


(unedited)

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Wednesday, November 9, 2016



This one is a special one. Firstly, it marks the birth of my second little bundle of joy, my son (who isn't so little anymore...) Secondly, it proves that madness and melancholia need not be unproductive. And thirdly (and hopefully,) it proves what someone once so wisely said - that the sweetest songs are those that speak of saddest thoughts.



A Mother's Complaint


He watched with darting eyes the leaf-
A tiny green thing, a mere suggestion
Of things yet to come...yet to come-
His curious eyes, prying secrets unborn

He flexed his nimble fingers long:
Twisted knotted, old yet strong
Weathered yet witchy, withered yet warm;
Undid the tiny tangled veins
Bid sap run, tendrils uncurl
Bidding the unwilling leaflet be born...

He chased little rabbits to their homes
Sent fledglings flying on unsure wings
Sent little lost lambs to be found
All older, wiser, and big some more
Their littleness a little less than before...

Their wings stronger
Bounds springier, coats glossier
How they run and whirl! How they dance and twirl!
Little dimpled boy, little doe-eyed girl!

Little bird and bunny and wooly lamb
All dancing to his merry tune
All dancing away from the unweaned world
Of toothless grins and gurgling smiles
And fuzzy skins and faultless wiles...

Oh Time, killer of my tiny joys
How shall I ever forgive what you've done
Gave me a miracle to have and hold
Yet ere I could a moment spend
In loving every hug and kiss
In counting every broken tooth
Or tending every tummy ache
And wiping runny noses dry...
And feel the warmth of tiny hands
That clutch against my heavy heart
That smell of milk and baby soap
And taste of salt from teary eyes...

You took before I even had
A little more than a moment brief
With my little monster wild
My little, unweaned, unruly child
And turned him into someone else
A stranger all so strong and wise
A stranger I don't recognize

And left me beggared at memory's door
With a silly mother's aching heart -
Nor stronger nor wiser than before.


(Posted on FB on December 1, 2014, written perhaps a couple of days earlier)



This one was written in September 2010:



Dead and Waiting to be Born

Don't wanna be here tonight
Don't wanna see those old faces anymore
Life's too short to waste on a fight
And sometimes it's good to just close the door

I have erased the songs we heard
Endlessly on endless nights
And laughed away the dreams absurd -
Shadow plays in candlelight

But sometimes it's only too wise
To blindfold those searching eyes
Red-rimmed and bleary through sleepless nights
Awake, awaiting, all despite...

Close, close those chapters, set alight
Those crazy doodles running right
Across my pages, my pages bright,
Scribbled, scrabbled, pages bright...



(Posted on FB on September 5, 2010)


About this blog...

I don't know if I love Eliot more, or Shelley. But one thing I'm completely sure of, is that I love poetry.

On and off, I wrote lines as they came to me. Many of them were really nice, the kind that makes you feel warm and content inside every time you read them. Many of them were trite, begging for correction, often edited, never satisfying, yet refusing to be struck out. Of all the many lines I wrote, only a few remain that I have preserved due to no fault of mine. Thank Facebook for that.

I decided finally that I could post all those poems in a blog. Which won't really make for much, but at least it is a start, and a workbook that I hope will inspire me to return to my dishonest fling with poetry and make it good.

So here's Ctrl+C and Ctrl+V from Facebook...my first piece posted there in 2010:




Waiting for Godot

Waiting for Godot 
On my doorstep tonight 
Someone tells he's tall and dark 
Someone else he's squat and bright 
Not that it matters how Godot looks 
I wait for him 'neath a moonless night 

I waited all the summertime 
And heard the dewdrops gently fall
I saw the roses bloom and die
I heard the sparrows darkly call
To sparrowlings that've long flown away
From sheltered wings that'd held them all

I waited watching purple flowers
Turn blue, and black, and crinkly dry
As cold winds shook those lazy dogs
That on my porch did basking lie
They ran away to god knows where
I waited on and god knows why...

I waited for Godot yesterday
When thoughts flowed free like fresh-press'd wine
Between my fingers, staining red
The sun-bleached empty walls of mine
I painted for Godot yesterday
A human face with heart divine.

And yet I waited all day
And still I wait in this twilight hour
When silence reigns o'er blasted lanes
And droughts have wasted the wine-filled bower
All circus animals are dead and gone
My muse has taken another lover.

So I'm waiting for Godot
On my doorstep tonight
Waiting, waiting evermore
For a tiny beam of guiding light...



(posted on January 13, 2010)